Week 7: Who’s Janelli behind those smiles?

-my negative side

More and more migraines. I’m very sensitive to light that whenever the sun is exposing too much light in my eyes I easily get more than a headache- migraine. To prevent this feeling I project in the camera and take some pictures of me. I found this really helpful. Also, I bring a lot of medicines inside my bag for emergency purposes like this one.

Crabby me. When I get too stressed out and nobody is helping me I get hot tempered at times, but it is rare now. I learned from this semester that I can start something even though they don’t want to help me. Anyway, it’s their choice not mine and they will never benefit from it.

I can’t control spending especially on clothes. Yes, this is me. But I don’t buy expensive ones. I’m very practical with my fashion statements but I just can’t help buying something especially when it’s on sale.

I panic, a lot. Whenever we have deadlines I don’t know what to do first and what to do last, where to start and where to finish. But now I learned how to adjust and adapt the life of an MMA student. I don’t practice Mañana habit, because whenever I have time I do stuffs in advance. But sorry for this blog that it’s late, I finished bunch of projects. Thank God I’m done with all this stuff. Till next blogging. J

Week 6: How did he know?

How did you know by Gary Valenciano is my baby James’ favorite song because it was actually my brothers’ favorite song and yes, James was influenced by his tito JM because he sings this song every day.

“I remember so well the day that you came into my life. . .”

          I can still reminisce the day when I knew that I was pregnant. At first, I didn’t know what to and what to feel, knowing that I’m still young for this. I kept observing tummy minute by minute. I feel fear, excitement, joy and love, it was mixed emotions. Then here came 17^th of April 2011. After giving birth, I just can’t believe it. I’m can’t help asking myself if this is all real? But the moment that I saw that gorgeous, active and little baby boy I can say that it was the most genuine happiness that I ever felt.

“My life started to change. . .”

          Yes, my life did change a lot. I have more responsibilities now. But despite all of these changes, I learned the real meaning of life and became mature in different aspects.

“How you brought the sun to shine in my life. . .”

          Back then, I easily get depressed. Living a life with my baby is living a life with no worries that you can do anything because you are inspired to give him a beautiful future. His smile always get me back into the right mood, and yeah he never fails with this one.

“No words can express how much I L-O-V-E Y-O-U”

          The lyrics above say it all. All of my hard works are dedicated to my one and only James. I love you is not enough to express my deep love for him. I love him no matter what.

I know that someday he will be able to read this blog and I’m hoping that he’ll understand me for my mistakes. But all in all, I didn’t regret having James. He’s a blessing and a gift.

“James, mommy loves you! Always be a good boy.”